Here With Me

Well, it's official, Mica and Emma almost killed me. It took two years and one month, countless arguments with the characters themselves, and the turning of the dragon into an actual ancient, immortal warrior, but I have finally--finally--gotten these two stubborn, wonderful characters to their happy ending.

Two years is an awfully long time to be lost in anything, and by the time I started this version at the end of January, I was convinced I'd either broken them to the point of never being able to fix them, or I'd created two characters, a story and an entire world that were just above my ability and creativity to write. When your family is getting jealous of the characters only you can see and hear, it's time to either get the story done, or admit you're just not that talented. Whether I am talented or not is yet to be seen, but I wasn't willing to give up on telling this story until I had no other choice, so I buckled down, and with the help of a very good friend who refused to let me give up, I was able to finally get these two to the ending they deserve.

Not that the story doesn't still need work, and honestly, I'm not sure they won't try to split my head open when it comes time to edit, but I am happy with the overall story. Making Mica immortal gave me everything I needed to make the pieces fit, and Emma LOVED the idea of her fantasy world being real--and her dragon really, truly being *A* dragon. Emma managed to get over her insanity fears and save her dragon, and Mica was able to see that he could break the cycle without it costing him his life. And thanks to the help of his seventeen year old daughter (you know, the one he never knew was his) he will let himself and his pixie have kids without worrying about passing down whatever was wrong with his father. But it's done now, for now, and it's time to move on to the next story.

I fell in love with Rachel and Chad the very first time I saw them together, and while their story will have their own issues and conflicts, neither of them will let the internal conflicts keep them apart. While Mica and his Emma thrived in the conflicts between them, even when it was close to destroying them, Chad and Rachel will break your heart at the need each has inside to just be where the other is, and they will fight to keep what they have found.

And now that I have stalled for long enough, I need to go finish chapter two of their story.

Thanks for stopping by,
Eden

Wow. It's been almost a year since I've updated this. That's really bad. What is it about life that sucks us in and makes us hyper-focus on certain things while others get pushed to the background, no matter how well intentioned we are to see them through?

Anyway, I'm still writing. Of course. I don't think I'll ever be able to stop, but no matter how much I want to get this story done, I can't get it to feel right. Yes, I am still working on Mica and Emma, and thanks to Christine Feehan's Dark Prince I have done some reworking of the world my characters live in. For two years, these characters have been all I've thought about, and I know them inside and out. I know everything about them, can hear their thoughts almost as clearly as my own--and yet the story refuses to write itself. I have no idea where I am going wrong, or how to fix my writing slump. I LOVE writing. I do, I love it, but I think--and this is the insecure author in me talking--that I am suffering from writer's doubt. Am I capable of bringing this story to life? Can I make readers love these two as much as I do? What if I can't?

Or maybe I am over-thinking this. It is a definite possibility, but the honest truth is that this story will not get done if I don't write it. So I will finish it, and if it's not perfect, I will keep taking it apart and putting it back together until it is.

Take care,
Eden